I was pregnant and I read a book about a mom who had molested/hurt/mentally and physically tortured her son as well as other kids...him and his adopted mom are the one's who wrote the book. I never finished it, too much shit for me to handle. Anyway that's when my first sexual bad thought happened. What if I am like this mom? I knew I wouldn't be but I was scared to death... I managed to talk to my boyfriend about it and he assured me I would never ever ever be like that. But the fear was still there. Eventually I jumped back to my main fear thank god.

You should tell your boyfriend you read a book about pedophile/necrophiliac whatever and explain that it triggered your OCD. It doesn't matter if you actually read a book about it but I think it will help so he can have a reason for it being on your mind. You know what I'm saying? Does he know what OCD is and what it does? Explain to him that your mind just gets stuck on a horrible thought or situation and you know it won't happen but your OCD just keeps you in the perpetual fear. And that is why you are uncomfortable when you have sex.

I know it's so uncomfortable just trying to bring it up but I think it will help if he knows. If he doesn't understand pull up stories of people who have the same fear as you. I mean even other fears. Maybe he will better understand why your mind works that way.