I believe you. But I hadn't even gone over the times she cheated, or the personal issues she has. It just became too much, and would take too long.
The thing is, I know she has a good heart. I know that she can love. She just has these severe issues that turn her into this insane person, this liar, this selfish cheater, this evil person, and I've tried to help, I've talked to her, I've tried to be kind, I've been mean, I've walked away, anything to show her what she was doing was wrong. Nothing ever worked. And besides all this stuff, i'm also left with the deep sadness over hurting her and making her cry. But I realize that pretty much every time that happened, she was the one that caused it directly or Indirectly through her lies. The times she cheated, she deserved it. All the things she did turned me into an emotional, paranoid wreck.
I just don't understand how her parents can make me the bad guy. How they can say, "This guy that's been the closest to her for the longest, who's been there every single day for a very long time, who's talked to her more than anyone about more things, who knows things about her even we don't, who's forgiven her when she lied, who always trusted her with chances to prove herself, this guy must obviously be insane and psycho with no truth to what he says." Can they not see that I have insight? That I have experience with her? That my words aren't bullshit, and i'm saying them for a reason. They know I'm not some bum, they know i'm intelligent, successful, and hard working. I don't know how they can read through our text messages, where I clearly spell out the things that have happened, and not DO ANYTHING. Don't they realize that she loves me for a reason? And had I been wrong about the things I said, she would have stopped talking to me? Can they not tell she's blatantly lying in her texts? Do they completely pass over the texts she has with other guys, without wondering "why does this guy keep texting her? why is he saying these things to her if she's being honest? Why are her messages out of context? Why does she contradict herself?" When I literally say 5 other guys names, how can they not ask her about it or be suspicious? Do they think I literally make it up? How can they not see that she needs help?
You don't want to be in my place. I gave her the same chances, she promised me the same things. It never stopped. It never ended. Literally, from day 1 until this moment, even after everything, she still blatantly lies, and it keeps getting worse." Seriously, *read this.** After a very long time, when she finally told me that she was ready to be the kind of person I deserved, ready to change, ready to take things more serious than she ever had before, things got worse than ever.
This is the kind of thing that takes years of intensive therapy to help. I'm sorry but i'll be blunt, do you want to go through that? Do you want to be in my place? You don't. You know what i'm going through, you do have an idea, but you have no idea what its done to me. I feel like she's a succubus that took half my soul. I don't understand why I'm the bad guy and she's let off without question." When I talk about the things she did, *I'm not making it up. There's a reason I say these things. Seriously, there is no way someone can even make up what I went through with her. How do her parents do NOTHING ABOUT IT!
If I could go through it again, I would have avoided her at all costs. Saying she lied to me is such a ridiculous understatement. I would literally call out her lies and say, "Seriously. You're lying." And she would deny it. Then I would say "this this and this proves you're lying." And she would still deny it. Then eventually the truth would come out, and guess what, she was lying. And then when she lied again, I would be like, "Do you remember that time you lied, swore it was the truth, I told you I knew better, and I turned out to be right? Are you really going to lie to me again?" Of course she'd swear honesty, only to have the same thing happen again.
How can her parents let this slide. How can they DO NOTHING. It's not like they're bums or bad parents. They are insanely successful, intelligent, elite, contributing members of society. How can they let this side?! Seriously, OK, go ahead and get mad at me for calling out your daughter for the fucked up things she did like blatantly cheating behind my back, at the same exact time she was telling me I was the only one. But how can you let that slide without doing ANYTHING? Do you think that someone your daughter has "been with" for that long would just make shit up like that? They have no idea!
Anyways... I'm just rambling... Off my chest that is. I apoligize for the length... I hope this gives you some insight, and if you have questions feel free...