Try living with an abusive and alcoholic father with a bipolar disorder and anger + control issues and also has a history of being physically abusive, being denied basic stuff and threats to be abandoned if you don't listen to him for 26 years and then being talked into paying his expenses while being emotionally manipulated to do what he has planned for you and then we'll talk. I don't want to be mean but you seem awful to converse with. Your username suits you. Hope you have a day as pleasant as you are. For the sanity of other people, I'm once again asking you to please refrain from commenting on my or any other posts in an attempt to "help". No one would welcome what you seem to be offering.