Yeah it was my first empathogen and I loved it.

I did it at a music festival (Okeechobee in Florida, saw Snoop Dogg, the Roots, Travis Scott, and some smaller DJs). It felt great, just how I always imagined being geeked up on ecstasy would feel.

I was super energetic but without any nervousness, just pure excitement for the music and joy in being surrounded by people ready to party.

I was as talkative as when I’m really drunk except I felt focused and aware enough that I didn’t feel like I might accidentally say something really dumb. I felt more confident than usual and like I was having much better than average conversations with all the people I met.

Felt a little like a tweaker when my mouth started wanting to swallow itself, but I saw a group near me passing around some gum and I figured they were in a similar condition and when I asked if they’d share they were happy to.

When the music was hitting just right, and that gum was just the right amount of minty, and the people around me were just the right amount of friendly, and there were just enough blunts and joints being passed around, I was absolutely swimming in waves of dopamine tingles and couldn’t stop grinning.

I don’t really think I had any negative after effects other than a little exhaustion, it even felt like a bit of an afterglow the next morning but I couldn’t tell if it was the drugs or just genuine happiness with the memory I had made/was making.

And thanks, I’ll try diving into those papers. I will say reading about heart issues kind of gives me a little irrational panic though. It’s the only health problem prevalent in my family, and even though I do a lot of things healthier than most of my relatives (don’t smoke cigarettes, drink less sugar/caffeine drinks, more proportionate body weight), just thinking in too much detail about how the heart actually works makes mine start to pace.