Should I just say F my morals and try medication

Most definitely. I’m 21 in a few days and the first time I felt prolonged depression I was 14. I went to the doctor just for a regular checkup and my mom was there because I was a minor. My feelings were on my mind heavily so when the doctor came back I figured I should tell her that I had been feeling really sad and I didn’t know what was wrong with me. My mom looked at me really confused and upset because I hadn’t told her first then immediately told me “you’re too young you have nothing to be depressed about” and I think that’s stuck with me for a while. Feeling like I have these feelings for nothing, but as I got older and studied more about my symptoms I was able to get rid of those nagging thoughts.

Mental illness is very obvious within both of my parents because of their own upbringings but no one ever talks about it. I would probably keep that I’m on medication to myself, not because of shame but just simply because most older people in families just don’t understand.

I’m okay with trial and error as long as the side effects don’t affect my day to day life more than normal. I’m more open to the idea of giving it a chance, it really feels like I have no choice and I don’t want to be in a constant battle with my own brain everyday. I want to feel normal and healthy and eventually have a family of my own and I don’t want my mental health to affect me so much to the point where I get in my own way and sabotage every dream I have

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