Hi OP , I've struggled with crippling depression and was on the verge of killing myself 2 years ago , just wanna say seek help or at least speak to your friends who you trust
I surrounded myself with people who make me happy and also started using music as a form of therapy as music helps to increase dopamine and serotonins
Im attaching a bunch of quotes which I see everyday to go on , have a look at them and you're gonna get through this , remember there's always a light at the end of every dark tunnel
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