Should I tell sober house manager I've been using?

I always wondered why smoking seemed so innocent, while my former addiction has changed and transformed me in strange ways. I felt like it was dying my character away, years later I realised, what actually was consuming me. Lying. All those lies were eating me up. All those lies made me feel less like myself.

I think relapsing is okay to some extend. I have relapsed so goddamn often back then, how could I live with myself, if it weren’t? But yeah, lying is what got the best of me back then. To be clear, I relate this experience to the problem of lying to the ones, that are close to you. Your situation might be different, and as I read through the comments I realised, that it’s much more complicated for you. Wanted to throw my feelings in here, don’t know why, I sure know it’s not making things easier for you. Stay strong buddy, anyway you decide, we’re always a little proud of you for reaching out to a nice community, like this one

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