Should I do the whole tab?

200ug isn't an "ego death" dose really. Although some people claim to achieve ego death at only 100ug (which I think isn't possible). Ego death is something like losing all sense of yourself. There is no "I" anymore. Your body exists in space but you can't seem to put a name to it. It's kinda like forgetting who you are or what you do. But it's not that simple. It feels like YOU actually died. Not like, you're not breathing anymore, not like physiological death. Literally your ego doesn't exist anymore. It's dead. That's the point where you're not "you". Your body is still sitting there, but there isn't much behind it except for (what I like to call) "a clean slate". Yeah you're conscious of all this. But again it's very hard to describe because it's different for everyone. If you keep a cool mind you can accept it and let things play out. Or you can fight it and you'll think you've lost your marbles and your next stop is a mental institution. You need not worry about that though, usually you don't get to that point until around 300ug+. You may feel that "clean slate" like characteristic, but really I think that's just you knowing you're safe, you're happy, you don't have any obligations, relationships are doing well. Etc. you're just doing well, and the LSD is making you feel very pleased with yourself. But again it's different for everyone.

Headspace is generally what you would call your method of thinking and perceiving. Your sober headspace is like your default way of thinking. Drunk headspace is smoother and you just don't give a shit. Weed headspace is cloudy and maybe a little slow.

LSD headspace is hard to describe because again, it's different for everyone. It's very analytical. You notice patterns literally everywhere in both physical objects and ideas. This can be good or bad. Normally, when you're tripping you enjoy thinking about, well... everything! You notice clouds look all wispy and fluffy because they're only shaped by wind. You are able to recognize why certain things are way they are, but in new ways you haven't considered. Most of the time, it's dumb stuff lol. You'll be amazed that when you eat orange that you feel energized and happy. But in the end, you ate the citrusy sugar which made you have a little sugar rush (plus vitamins and other stuff). So you see, you draw connections between things you never REALLY delved into. I have a personal example. About 6-7 months ago I tripped with some good friends at some camping grounds near us. We dropped almost as soon as we got there so we didn't really set everything up before we starting tripping lol. Anyway we walked around barefoot because it felt natural and comfortable. Like our feet have evolved millions of years walking around on the earth so it makes sense. A few hours later when the trip started to comedown a bit we decided to start setting up the camp. I was tasked with gathering firewood so I had to go off the marked trails to get anything big enough to sustain a campfire. While I was waking around my feet began to feel sore and it felt uncomfortable to walk. It wasn't because we had been barefoot the whole time (we were sitting around most of the trip) but it was because we simply weren't used to walking around in the woods without shoes. So I headed back to camp and cleaned my feet and put on a fresh pair of clean socks and my snug hiking shoes. And immediately I felt like I was walking on clouds. And at that point I realized the great advancement in human ingenuity that put together the shoe. We wear them because the ground is uncomfortable and we prefer to have your feet well supported by rubber and plastic, all the while being lightweight, flexible, rather long lasting and more comfortable than having nothing. So, as you can tell. At the time my mind was blown. But as a sober person you'll sit there and say "well duh, that's not profound at all". However that doesn't mean you can't have any profound thoughts or ideas. It's just being able to put the ideas to words and the words to paper that is very difficult. You'll find a lot of your thoughts are forever "lost" in the LSD high because literally everything is amazing and there isn't time to necessarily focus on just one thing, AND be able to relay your thoughts into words.

Unfortunately, there is a flip side to the enhancement in perception. Because as your thoughts could be happy and productive, they can also be negative or scary. And this is where thought loops or paranoia can kick in. Say you're out for a walk to the nearby park. While you're walking you notice a car is driving along behind you. Since you're tripping balls, you might start thinking "shit does this guy know I'm on LSD?". He'll slow down to pass you on the road but your mind is thinking otherwise. You may start to think "oh fuck he's slowing down right next to me I think he's looking my way". He drives past literally not giving a shit that you're walking there. People walk places along roads lol. But you're caught up in your mind making crazy scenarios in your head. When you finally get to the park you might see a little kid crying. You might start to think "did I just make this kid cry? Did I do this? Fuck these adults are looking at me now!" When in reality, the kid was going to cry whether or not you happen to walk past. And the adults are only concerned with the child, not the guy who just walked past it. Maybe further down the park you notice a policeman has pulled up and exited his car. You might start thinking "they know! Holy shit they're here to get me, I gotta get out of here!" And you have a nervous breakdown just because you saw a cop. But really, the cop stopped to check on the small child that you passed earlier. Maybe the child fell and the policeman is just making sure he doesn't need medical attention or anything. But you see it's very easy (for those who aren't experienced with LSD) to think that the world is out to get them for taking LSD. When in reality, absolutely no one knows you've taken it except for you.

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