When I was a kid from age 10 to age 13 I just got it, I knew what to do I was popular, happy fucking jacked I was average height, average looks but I played soccer 24/7, ran etc. this gave me great physique for my age so I've had this going for me.

When I had my standard checkups with my family doc he noted that I should stop training so hard because due to this unusual muscle mass for my age my growth would be inhibited but finally I ended up with average height at 5ft 9in.

I have had a very pleasant, positive and dominant personality(thanks to sports) and I was very healthy thanks to my grandmother's great coocking.

I could tell from my interactions with girls that they naturally liked me, they approached me on their own and just wanted to spend time with me I was a natural, positive, lovable asshole.

This of course couldn't last long as I was a child of a single mother... yes not a widow she had me and almost 2 years into marriage and pregnant she just fled, left my father to live with her parents and it stayed this way.

Everything was good thanks to my grandparents help, but it started to go downhill when unexpectedly my grandfather died after an accident he had(no more male rolemodel, no man to take care of her, grandma helped alot but it was too much).

My mom would work, but she was by no means responsible. She also had some fucked up tantrums which ended in destroying my stuff or insulting me(a little kid) it got even worse when she had problems securing her bb, who turned out to be smarther than her, used her and was a really bad influence on me(outright liar, tried to use us as housekeeping when he was out) after age 15 I was a depressed, antisocial, fucked up kid with problems in school due to problems with attendance.

She straight out beat the hope out of me, actively turned me into a nice guy, actively isolated me from my friends and all this was done under the guise of "caring" for my future. Please... Now when I found this great forum and some other information on the relations between narcissistic females and their children(basically sabotage for future usage) it all clicked and now I can see the full extent of my damage.

So what about guys like me, I definitely was able to see it, get it when I was younger, but due to this shit I definitely lost it just to stumble upon theredpill...