Remeber those small moments in your life that made you smile and felt content?
I don’t know you but i’ll try to give you a broad ranch of those moments that your surely have felt at least one of them, wether it was watching a tv show/movie, reading a book, spending time with people who care about you, getting a compliment from a stranger, playing a video games, going on a good date, eating an awesome meal, traveling, laughing your ass off over something funny or stupid, listening to music, working out, etc i could go on and on but the point i am trying to perceive to yourself is that life is not just about the big picture of things, we’re all pressured in a sense of societies standards of how we should behave and feel, look to embrace the little things in life that truly make you happy, take it one step at a time, if you have the energy get out of your comfort zone and try something new.
I understand the pain of not wanting to live anymore/bored of life/disappointments, i’ve felt that way since i was a child and still do to this day, but i’d never ever consider taking my life because i’ve had some extreme close love ones who went through with it and how their actions on doing so affect me to this day.
That said my intentions are not to make you feel guilty having those thoughts of ending things, you are allowed to have those thoughts but the goal is to get rid of them by experiencing things that make you want to live.
I hope you get the chance to read this, i don’t know if it will help but i just want you to know some random stranger put the time/effort writing all this because they care about you, i’m not a religious man but i’ll send some prayers your way. <3