Show me your High Priestess cards!

I am attempting the three-stage model in transmutation of myself; I have found myself in a position of self-contempt/self-loathing for decades.

I am attempting to exorcise various aspects of my thinking, behavior, and especially bad habits in terms of what comes out of my mouth - or more specifically, exerting control and discretion now; this has opened a massive spiritual path in front of me. I like to think of this as a process of "burning off" these habits through self-discipline and deconstruction.

I have noticed, to great satisfaction, the constant, unremitting effort involved (try, for example, not to ever use profanity, and observe the sheer amount of moment-to-moment concentration that takes - if, of course, you are predisposed to profane rants.) I like to think that this constant, daily, moment-to-moment effort corresponds to the flame of an athanor, and the steady flame of albedo, the swan. In my attempt to create new habits to replace the old, I am attempting to fix behavior so that I don't have to keep thinking about it and making course corrections and mistakes.

Within this imagery I hope to find landmarks and principles to help me manage this. Ordinarily people speak of the alchemical journey as some sort of spiritual climb to the divine, along the lines of attaining gnosis; unity with the godhead or a return to the Pleroma.

But I am not so metaphysically inclined.

I am hoping that the "that" which is above really is like that which is below and thus this process can also be applied to the microcosm of my life - my physical body, the way I interact with others, and the energy I put out into the world socially, my path on being the here-and-now-in-the-flesh human I want to be. And that in some sense, treading these paths, in the right order, and using the right symbolic signposts, really does accomplish the miracle of One Thing.

I could be completely off the rails but fuck it, there's shit on TV.

/r/tarot Thread Parent