Single men who have slept with married women: why did you pursue it? Was it purely physical or was there an emotional connection as well?

I was 21, virgin, no friends, semi-suicidal. She was 38, lived out of state and flew me around the country to spend time with her. Was 100% emotional.

To be honest, it never occurred to me that I could say no. From that first phone call I received from her at midnight I never said no to anything. It wasn't until I had to choose to relocate to the other side of the continent that I felt like I could actually choose anything.

It ate me up. I felt so guilty that I considered moving to one of a certain number of countries where they would execute me for it. After close to 30 years it still torments me because while I didn't understand anything then I now understand how 500% wrong it was, but also because I still love her - I'm still in love with her. Even if she wasn't remarried though I still couldn't be with her, partly because I needed to start a family of my own, not suddenly find myself as the step-dad to three teenagers.

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