Singles of Reddit, why are you single?

In my first relationship we started drifting apart and eventually seperated and never spoke again after dating for 2 years in highschool.

In my second relationship I dated one of my co-workers, we had a lot in common and were really close friends. But we got into a stupid argument and ended up breaking up, I ended up quiting that job and never seeing her again.

Now comes my third relationship which was probably one of the worst choices of my life. I met this girl in English class, she was a cute Russian with a slight accent, loved partying, playing video games and we never really ran out of things to talk about. We were together for about a year and during that time she dropped out of school, got addicted to pot, smoked a couple packs of cigarettes a day and was either stoned or wasted everyday and on top of that she was jobless and in debt. Before we brokeup I lent her about 7 grand to pay for shit, hoping she would get her shit together time and time again, but she never did. So I ended up breaking up with her and forced her out of my life.

After that I was pretty convinced fuck that never again. But then I met a girl online playing one of my favorite video games. At first we were just friends and as I got to know her, I really enjoyed talking to her and spending time with her. She admitted to having feelings for me after we exchanged Christmas gifts. I never thought I would ever end up in a long distance relationship, but I liked her enough to try. After dating long distance for almost a year I eventually flew out to see her in-person, she was just as amazing in-person as she was online. Someone who was smart, cute, funny, independent, anxious(in a cute way), hard-working,creative and she could always put a smile on my face no matter what mood I was in. For the first time in my life I actually thought she could be the one for the long run and I was more determined than ever to get my shit together. I wanted to figure things out like graduating, starting a career, investing in real-estate and stuff like that. But eventually I ended up messing things up with her getting jealous, starting conflict with her for no reason, hurting her feelings, not giving her space and just overall acting like a total idiot. Now she probably still hates my gutts and won't ever talk to me again.

Anyways to sum it all up, I doubt I'll ever get it right and I have no desire what so ever to try again with someone else and I've concluded that I'm probably better off alone. For Valentine's day this year I plan on playing video games with my best friends because fuck relationships.

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