My own sexuality. Sometimes when you "discover" yourself, you go overboard and you want to see all these things about everyone that's the same as you, and make that mental transition. I fervently believed that I was a lesbian until SJWs became more vocal and I started hearing about it more and more.

I don't think I was ever a lesbian - I think I wanted to just pick a side and be done. The matter of fact is that I find it very difficult to talk to women and to relate to them because a lot of the ones I've come across are SJWs. They'll casually say "men are pigs" in everyday speech and elude to the idea that men aren't capable of compassion and emotion.

I have a very strong relationship with my dad. He's my best friend. I'm not going to be swayed into anything that tries to tell me that he abused me or that he's scum for being exactly what a father is supposed to be. He taught me about technology and how to fight to defend myself, and how not to let people walk all over me. We enjoy a lot of the same things, and we're very similar in the way that we handle a problem. I wouldn't ever be with someone that didn't want to associate with him specifically because he had a dick.

I would go so far today to say that being a man would be easier for me mentally. I understand male-typical emotions a lot more than I understand my own female emotions, so much that sensitivity or vulnerability make me angry at myself because I can sit there and know that I'm crying over something stupid, but I can't stop it. It's easier to control than it has been in the past, probably due to my ADHD medication - at least I have this going for me. I can say that I would be more satisfied being a man in a gay relationship, but I don't think it's going to happen. I do female things and they don't bother me at all. I appreciate my female figure, and I enjoy putting on makeup to look a little nicer, as well as having my nails look nicely painted. Although my hair is a hassle, I can't say I'd like it short either. Transitional surgery, at this point in time, is not seen as a favourable option to me. Others will disagree on that, but I'm also a bit of a perfectionist - and this has no bearing on anything other than my own mind. I would rather have them clone my DNA, find a way to give it a Y chromosome, and then grow a phallus. I have no doubt that it'll be possible in the future but I'm not exactly sitting at the edge of my seat for it either.

Does this mean I'm internally misogynistic? No, not at all. I can appreciate women, and I can appreciate my own physical female traits, but I do like my more masculine mental traits. I enjoy having a high sex drive, a more assertive presence that can defend my weaker areas, and my ability to be good friends with men without changing anything about myself at all.

I guess I have SJWs to thank for spurring that line of thought, but I don't like that I have them to thank.