OP, I'm literally 5'1ft tall and 110lbs soaking wet. My bf, on the other hand, is like a 6ft tall, 200+lbs big european dude. There have been one or two times in the last 6 years where I have been very upset/annoyed with him - I'm talking like, wanting to pull my hair out, bloodred angry. Never, not even in our worst moments have I ever wanted to hit him or inflict any sort of physical pain on him because that is beyond fucked up. We dont even joke about that stuff because he gets legitimately disgusted at the thought of us getting physical like that, it would just never happen.

This girl does not love you OP. She's unapologetic and this is grounds for abusive relationship.