Hi, yeah this sounds all to familiar to me, I also suffer from depression and social anxiety and other things and they go together to create a horrible cycle that seems never ending, and so life just seems like this prison sentence to me, when it will be all over and I tell myself soon it will be all over because people don't live forever, just got to get through it somehow the best way I know how to. KNew I was horribly depressed in my early 20s, tried to distract and ignore it, then numb it somehow, but now I'm older it seems so much worse, going through it without numbing it definitely doesn't seem any easier to me, so it's wake, sleep, wake, sleep..... Everyday till the end.

Anyway I'm not meaning to be too negative, maybe having some hobbies might help in-between? I find this helps a little, even if I have days on end where I feel unmotivated and unable to do things as well as I do other days, as others have said, it is brave to to hold onto life when we are really struggling or even when we don't want to be a part of it, Take good care of yourself anyway :)