I had a few experiences smoking this toad. I don't think it's that simple. It is an extremely intense experience (I think the most potent psychedelic known to man). You experience death, you leave your body, it cuts to the core of your deepest issues and exposes them. But you still have to go back to your real life and process and do the daily process/work on yourself and your issues. I dont think it just cured my depression. But I have a deeper understanding and awareness of why Im depressed, where this is all coming from. Personally, I had a lot of experiences with ayahuasca and certain strong psychedelics such as this. At the end of the day, here are two very important things I have learned in that world: 1. These medicines will not cure you. They can help you a lot, but you have to do the work on yourself, every day. It is not a magic button, or a pill that automatically alleviates your problems. Not at all, in fact, its more like diving into the deep end of your problems and having to face it head on. Unless you're willing to do that, don't bother. ITS NOT FUN. Which leads me to...2. These psychedelics are like playing with fire. Fire can be a miraculous source of light, it can burn away the unnecessary, it can provide warmth and clarity (light). But you can also get burned. Trust me, ESPECIALLY if you are not approaching these medicines with the upmost respect and honor, as well as if you are not doing it with the right people. You need a shaman, but a lot of shamans are shady. You are putting your psyche into someones hands. Its not a joke. You cant do it alone, you need someone, but you also need to trust that person's intentions and abilities. That one is super tricky. I speak from experience, I played a dangerous game and I got burned bad. But I came out the other end, and Im lucky. This stuff is not a joke.

I am now at a point where I have had a lot of experiences with these medicines, trying to treat a severe depression that has plagued me my whole life. I got hurt very badly, but also got blessed and experienced healing. It's a tricky kind of world to navigate and I dont take it lightly. I think the goal is to get yourself to a position where you can actively do the work on your own, and that's where I am now. Daily meditation, focus, and processing my emotikns and traumas, spending my time on fruitful things like art, using that creative energy, that's what it brought me to. And its an every day effort. The depression is not gone completely but now I can slowly, gradually chip away at it, bit by bit. It's not too big or too mysterious for me to deal with it now.