Hey thanks...so i'll make it short right now, but i can expand if you want more details.. he's on the couch a few seats away from me right now.
I found him on Grindr. His name on Grindr was his nickname that everyone calls him. The pic was of his sexy abs lol. When I first saw it I didn't think it was him but i almost instinctively messaged him...it was like "hmm wth? that's weird...i'll message him on the off chance". He ended up asking for a pic, i asked him to send one first. he sent some old guy. I knew it was a fake. I asked him to send another. I sent a fake one to him... I KNOW he was just lying because he's smart and knew that it could be me. Myprofile is anonymous but you can still figure it out..
We've been friends since 10th grade. I always sort of had a thing for him, but nothing serious. Until like 3 years ago- I started crushing hard. He's "straight" but i always held out hope that he was gay. I felt like we had a connection and there were lots of subtle reasons that made me think/hope he was gay- or really I thought he was bi for a while. He's also my room mate, been for about a year now. I came out like 3 years ago now, they know i'm gay, they're cool with it, w.e.
I made so many moves on him, he knows I have a crush on him... now that I know he's into guys, i don't know what to do but it makes me sad because he may have been gay all this time but he's just not attracted to me... or maybe he just doesn't want anyone in his real life to know? He's very in the closet.
anyway if he really is gay I wish he would just give me a chance. We could be discreet- I wouldn't tell anyone- I'd keep his secret if he's worried about this -__-... I sound desperate....but we've been in the same close friend group for years, and we're now both adults...I really wish he'd just give me a chance.
I was also thinking of messaging him again on Grindr and approaching him that way....but idk if that's a terrible idea or not... i can answer any questions and explain the type of person he is... I don't know what to do but all I know is I like KNOW he's gay now, there's this weird tension in the air now because he's probably unsure about that conversation as well- he's stayed offline since he got back- probably so he doesn't pop up....he's smart too...i've been checking '' you see how fucked up this situation is?? lol I wish he saw he didn't have to keep it a secret from me... he hasn't told anyone.
sorry we're about to eat dinner...i know this is a lot...sorry to bother you with this...if anything thanks for listening!