Someone Sent Me a Video of My Ex and Now She's Missing

Well first, I want to thank you for taking the time to type that out and explain why it's considered rape instead of just cutting me a new one.

Straight up, I'm not judging her for the drug use AT ALL. I was a dealer of a different highly addictive substance way back in the day. I've seen shit. I put all of that out of my life decades ago. But I know the scene so to speak. That's why I'm almost positive I could track her down if I tried. And I wouldn't be afraid to do it. But tweaked out people want to act a fool sometimes, and I don't need to get arrested.

Since the #metoo movement happened there has been MUCH discussion on sexual abuse and rape. I can say with 100% certainty a LOT of the dialogue has changed my perspective on what actually is rape / abuse. I was molested for 6 years as a child. If anyone understands what it feels like to be victimized it's me.

That being said I have seen women eagerly do things for drugs (no, not with me; I'm very much a personal space kind of guy that would never do anything with a stranger), hell I've seen 100% straight males so strung out they eagerly did things for drugs. Were they doing something they'd rather not be doing? Yeah, plenty probably. But I couldn't begin to tell you how many addicts I saw strip down and get busy earning their drugs before ever getting them. It was sickening to watch, and I felt empathy / sympathy for them. But if they are willing to use their bodies as the means of currency in a drug deal; well hell, there are a ton out there who would say it's her body to do with what she pleases. They'd say I'm a misogynist for not recognizing "her body, her rights".

I freely admit I've never done meth so I don't grasp how it affects people. (And I have no doubt she was drinking along with that.) But I've had sex on a lot of different drugs and alcohol. Had the clip been of her passed out drunk and anyone defiling her I would have taken that straight to the cops. I guess I'm saying she was PARTICIPATING. Out of her mind on meth or not, drunk or not; when she's screaming, "yeah, fu&^ that p^%$$# harder!" I'm seriously having a hard time classifying it as "rape". And yes, I guess that is because I saw the horrible video.

Just so you know I have emailed a pic of the email header to her mom to show to the cops. That way they can know what email address it came from and perhaps track that down. I did inform her that the email was labeled "Anna" and that there was a video of her doing some unsavory things attached to it. She is supposed to email me back soon to tell me what the cops plan to do. If needed I will take the video by their police station tomorrow to view. As of right now a missing person report has been filed and authorities are out looking for her.

You are wrong about one thing. When I stop loving someone that space in my soul is replaced with utter hatred for that person until the day I die. The only reason I am even considering helping is i think highly of her mom. It isn't her mom's fault her daughter ended up a filthy gutter whore. And I have seen first hand how a mother losing a child (especially a daughter) affects a mom. As far as being a decent human, I treat people with as much decency as they treat me. She treated me most indecently, hence she is subhuman gutter trash unworthy of any of my time. But her mom has never been unkind to me, so I am doing what I am doing.

I guess since I'm doing what I can to do the "right" thing it's all good no matter what my motivation is. But I have to be honest and say if they found her body tomorrow in the woods somewhere i wouldn't care one bit. She's dead to me already. She fucked her own life up and mine. The less of those people there are in the world the better. But it would take years off of her mother's life, so I'm doing what I can to get a bimbo with a petri dish for a vagina home safely.

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