I cut off all communication with my parents over a year ago because my step-dad used to bully me and tell me he was going to beat me up a lot when I was a teenager, which led to me having all sorts of mental health problems and now him and my mum gaslight me and say that I’m lying and that he never used to do it or it’s somehow all my fault because even if it did happen then I somehow deserved it. I got sick of the way they treated me and eventually told them that they’re horrible people and I’m cutting all ties with them, about 18 months ago. But now none of my siblings believe me because I was too scared to speak up about it at the time and they never say directly or try to grill me about it but they seem very distanced from me now, I think they don’t want to believe me because it would corrupt the perfect image they hold of my parents in their head. On top of that my real dad doesn’t even seem interested that it ever happened to me, he didn’t really set the bar very high to begin with in that respect but it still hurts when I tell him all these problems and he doesn’t seem remotely concerned about any of it. And on top of that my grandad, who I was really close to, had to live with my parents a while back because of his age and I had to tell him about why I refused to speak to my mum and he didn’t believe me either. I was still in the process of trying to work out how I could come and visit him without having to get through my parents and then he suddenly died (a few months ago). Since then I’ve never cried about or even felt sad about it and I know that something is wrong there but I don’t know what it is. I think that maybe because of how everything panned out in the past few months the only way my brain could deal with it was to emotionally distance myself from him but now he’s dead and I feel like I’m not even human because I don’t feel sad or hurt that he’s gone when I know that I should.