You know something is wrong in the world when you feel ashamed to tell people you are a Christian and that you can’t wait to get married one day and respect men !

I was a depressed anorexic for 5 years and I had one of these existential crisis moments where suddenly I was overwhelmed with nihilism and couldn’t get out of the “what is life, who am I, what even are people” type of thinking. I felt so panicked that I went to the hospital in a cab and the driver basically changed my whole view, he made me believe in goodness again, he asked me what was wrong, and he said god gives struggles to people for different reasons. Sometimes the very special people have very hard struggles but they are meant to learn that they can lean on god. They aren’t in this alone. I felt so afraid and anxious and alone in the world before that and suddenly this kind stranger who said god bless you with such sincerity made my whole heart warm. I realized I rather believe in god, even if it took me some time to really feel like I believed again. God doesn’t want us to be depressed or unhappy or anxious. I really took a huge leap of faith and realized that the happiest times in my life were before when I really had this deep anchor of hope that I could rest in. I went to church that weekend and the priest was talking about how the holy spirit is within us at all times as our personal guide, and friend. As an anxious person at the time, Hearing that was like soothing balm for my soul. Basically I just said screw nihilism. I’m going to pray to believe until I really believe again.

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