I wanted bottom surgery for a loooong time but I never really had a hatred for what I have. After some time I started to be ok with it and I met so many cool people who saw me as me regardless of my genitalia. I would even get compliments about it from straight guys xD every time I heard it I was taken back a little bit, and these guys were not chasers. I dont know if maybe I was just living in a very liberal area or something at the time, but either way I kinda grew to appreciate what I have.

I dont glorify it or take pictures of it or anything, and I still fantasize about bottom surgery. But I also think I look hot with what I have, it's functional and I can enjoy sex with it so i don't feel so rushed to get bottom surgery anymore. Maybe in the future when I'm a little less scared of the small percentage that I'll lose sensation. I also have other concerns about bottom surgery unrelated to the surgery itself.

But yeah, would I love a vagina? God yes. Do I hate what i have? Not really. I would still take one in a heartbeat as you put it if it was given to me just like that or if the money dropped on my lap, but I kinda think my "girldick" is pretty hot ngl. Idk if this has any effect on my perspective but I've always enjoyed all body types so the idea of a girldick never struck me as "odd". But I've also met trans women who have absolutely zero desire to ever get bottom surgery and their opinion has not changed ever, and they still have dysphoria about other physical traits but absolutely zero bottom dysphoria.

It's a big colorful world.