Sometimes I have to remember that I'm human...

You are observing too much, and this is coming from someone who does a lot of observation.

When we spend so much time in our own head space watching the way things are done we forget we can do these things. The only thing stopping you is yourself. It might manifest as fear or doubt, but it is you getting in the way of yourself.

It doesn't have to be hard to overcome yourself. You need more distraction. The times you are busy and you don't dwell on intense observation or the state of your own mind. It is hard to know what distractions are good and what ones are bad. There was probably a time in your life it was easy, you just got distracted by the things that brought happiness.

Finding happiness in depression sometimes feels like there is no possible way to genuinely dwell on things that being you happiness. This is doubt, and sometimes guilt.

You have no reason to dwell on unhappiness, it's just something you do. It feels like you don't have a choice. This is just the long term mood of the mind and it takes environmental changes to overcome. The depression will make it hard to motivate yourself to make these changes, but once you do it will be happiness again.

The deeper the depression the harder it is to overcome yourself. Putting in the work will grow you as a person in a way nothing else will. You will be on top of your game. You will come out better than you went in.

Don't get intimidated by your own failures moving forward. Everyone makes mistakes constantly. When you loose your devotion to your own growth focus on resting. Maybe watch a movie with someone you like until you nod off. You can't rest when you're on edge and if you spend too much time resting it will lead back to depression and put you on edge.

Picking yourself up by your own bootstraps can be the scariest idea ever. The feeling that I can't possibly help myself. When you see those people living life normally realize they usually see you the same. They are just like you.

When I was in my deepest depression I lost the last shred of faith in my own ability to overcome pain and suffering. I didn't let it consume me. I tried confiding in my closest friend. It barely helped even though they were more supportive towards me than I ever had been to myself or another. For some reason I felt worse. So I worked towards positivity and it felt hopeless. Like there was never going to be an out. It was my own depression holding me back. I clinged so hard to my own suffering I had forgotten how to cling to happiness. It will always take time to relearn how to be happy but it will never be impossible. Even in your darkest times you can still make decisions. Your ability to make decisions can also be the decision towards happiness again.

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