I have bod and adhd as well and I have to say one totally sucks more than the other in my mind. I love my adhd. It allows me to out smart or out think most situations. It's proven very effective when working in fast paced environments and with outside the box thinking. The only reason either of these to "problems" are on a negative plain is because they don't fit the factory standard of the Industrial revolution. So I have a hard time standing in one spot being quiet. Sure. Nut I can run a Crew of over 20 and simultaneously track them without the chaos fucking me up. I see and exceptional skill set with my adhd. It makes me faster and more capable than most. The problem is that I don't fit in the box and I'm hard to control. Admittedly the bpd is not so easily flipped. Feeling as intensely as I or you may in the negative spectrum sucks balls. But man when I'm up I could take on the world and win. Just my thoughts that's all. Not sure if there is any merit. I have been called crazy before.