sometimes i sell nudes to feel less alone...

I'm very sorry to hear about you past with bullying, the lasting effects that can have can be really damaging, sometimes even worse than the bullying itself, so I can relate with you on that. I wouldn't say you profiting off of your physical appearance is necessarily a bad thing in itself, as long as you are in control, and you don't let anyone exploit you.

If you feel validated, and it allows you to overpower some of those demons from you past, and you're comfortable sharing images of your body like that, I'd say go for it. Just don't let it define your sense of self, and make relationships that you can gain more genuine, and wholesome validation from to balance it out. These don't need to be boyfriends, just friends in general.

I don't know your circumstances, and you say your lonely, so I'm going to assume you don't have many close friends. Making friends can be hard, but I think if you can find someone that you can talk to at least counteract the lonliness, you'll be able to think a lot clearly. The problem with being lonely is that you get stuck in a bubble, and that can kill rationality. Find someone to talk to about it, and maybe selling nudes might not seem like such a good idea, but then it again it might, just be careful.

Good luck, and I hope you find some peace of mind :)

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