This song encapsulates the inner conflict I've dealt with since I left

Lyrics for those who can't listen right now:

I can just hear them now

"How could you let us down?"

But they don't know what I found

Or see it from this way around

Feeling it overtake

All that I used to hate

Wonder what if we trade

I tried but it's way too late

All the signs I don't read

Two sides of me can't agree

When I breathe in too deep

Going with what I always longed for

Feel like a brand new person

(But you make the same old mistakes)

I don’t care I’m in love

(Stop before it’s too late)

Feel like a brand new person

(But you make the same old mistakes)

I finally know what is love

(You don’t have what it takes)

(Stop before it’s not too late)

(I know there’s too much at stake)

(Making the same mistakes)

And I still don’t know why it’s happening

(Stop while it’s not too late)

And I still don’t know

Finally taking flight

I know you don't think it's right

I know that you think it's fake

Maybe fake's what I like

Point is I have the right

I'm thinking in black and white

I'm thinking it's worth the fight

Soon to be out of sight

Knowing it all this time

Going with what I always longed for

Feel like a brand new person

(But you make the same old mistakes)

I don’t care I’m in love

(Stop before it’s too late)

Feel like a brand new person

(But you make the same old mistakes)

I finally know what is love

(You don’t have what it takes)

(Stop before it’s not too late)

Man, I know that it's hard to digest

But baby this story ain’t so different from the rest

And I know it seems wrong to accept

But you've got your demons, and she's got her regrets

And I know that it's hard to digest

A realization is as good as it gets

And I know it seems hard to accept

But you've got your demons, and she's got her regrets

But you've got your demons, and she's got her regrets

Feel like a brand new person

So how will I know that it's right?

In a new direction

So how will I know I've gone too far?

(Stop thinking that the only option was)

Feel like a brand new person

I finally know what it's like

(Stop thinking that the only option was)

So how will I know I've gone too far?

(Stop thinking that the only option was)

And I know it's hard to describe

(Stop thinking that the only option was)

So how will I know that it's right?

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