I'm beginning to wonder if a vaccine is even possible. There's no vaccine against the cold. It just mutates constantly and vaccines become worthless. What if this is what life is going to be for the rest of our lives? We are just going to slowly watch our parents die a horrible death. Our friends who have any medical conditions whatsoever will die a horrible death. I'm 5 pounds into the BMI overweight zone, and I will die a horrible death. Slowly we watch our friends and family members spew a pink frothy substance from their mouths as they desperately gasp for air but cannot get any. I think we are all just fucked. I can't think about anything else but throwing myself off a building. A quick snap of my neck is better than gasping and suffocating until pink frothy bubbles out of my orifices. I just hate this. I hate all of it.