2 years ago I cried for a week during the summer because I learned my medication can damage my ovaries and there was nothing I could do. I asked the doctor if that meant I would have a hard time having kids or if it increased the chances my kids will have disabilities. She didnt have an answer. I looked into tying my tubes because I didnt want to pass down this illness AND increase the chances it'll have more disabilities.. because I just want my kids to not suffer so much.. Also with the amount of chemical changes in my brain from all the different medications I had to try, it felt like my brain was just slowly dying more and more each medication felt exhausting to my brain.. depression wore me out and hypomania burned me out.. the meds all exacerbated both