It's not even a being brave or facing my fears type of thing with my social anxiety anymore. I know with fair certainity based off my long track record that my brain will in fact become compromised, I will stutter and fail to communicate effectively, I will be lost in my head, unable to remain present, and unable to organically converse with people.
I don't even know if it's social anxiety tbh, I just don't work 95% of the time in social/group stuff. I finish the event/trip/party reflecting on how stressful and difficult the whole experience was. There's no battling through that shit and making a good thing of it, I tried for the past 15-years (although alcohol helped at times).
Woah.. that got deep. But good job man, glad you made it work for you.