Probably TMI- Sorry. Maybe this is a stupid place to post this, but here goes.

I had really bad anxiety in my teens and 20’s. Long story short, I found myself a virgin at age 29. At this point I really thought I was just too broken to date and be physical with anybody. Just absolutely locked in my head. Anyways, the gal I had secretly been in love with for 12 years got a divorce and suddenly came back into my life. Somehow I found the courage to go for it. I finally got to date and fuck her. Thank you Jebus. She had the impression I was probably going to be pretty sexually conservative. I had always acted that way around her. I had dreamed of licking her pucker for 10 years. The 4th time we fucked we where in a jacuzzi tub. I had had enough of being so reserved and I just pushed her around up against the tub side. I washed here ass and just plunged in. She turned her head around and looked at me in complete shock. Then she got this evil grin on her face and let it happen. Holy Fucking Christ it was heaven. That evil grin is the most erotic memory I’ve ever had. Best spank material I have.

At that point it was game on. Got to try everything I had wanted to try. Bless her heart. I finally got to start the hard work of working on myself and learn how to communicate. We broke up after a year, but she really did save me. The only thing we had in common was fucking each other’s brains out. It was the most fun I’ve had.

Doing pretty well today.