[Spoilers] I just finished Oyasumi Punpun

Sorry this goes on a little too long, punpun is a very personal story to me

Punpun is an absolute masterpiece to me. I read it my freshman year of college two years ago and it was when I was lonely as hell that all my friends were moving away and was just very depressed in general. I had an ex in high school much like Aeiko who would abuse me, be nice to me at one point and then threaten suicide and make it overall very stressful. I thought about suicide every day in class, just wondering how and when I would do it. I got diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety from the entire ordeal, especcially after ending it and I felt as though punpun was the character I could relate to the most. Constantly after a girl who he knew he couldn't get with. Then the last year, I was lonely again looking for a girlfriend ok okcupid who was the first girl who seemed to have a genuine interest for me. I met her and she seemed like a nice girl from the little I talked to her. I felt like I might as well take the chance and date her. Jump forward that day I met her, we were watching a movie and she felt my boner, we were snuggling and at that point I was comfortable around her, one thing led to another and she was asking if I wanted to have sex, I agreed thinking that the opportunity would never happen again. I didn't feel comfortable and then just felt sick and guilty that I just did that with someone I just met. I feel that punpun regretted sleeping with the older lady (please correct me if I'm wrong) as I did. I picked her up again the next weekend and it was going fine, I told her we probably shouldn't sleep with each other anymore and I'm happy just being friends with her. Jump forward and she has a personality that is pretty much aeiko. She was raped by her dad several times throughout her life and in foster care/homeless most of her life. I know I didn't know her from when I was a kid but still I felt she was very relate able to her. Jump forward after I broke it off from her from abuse, she tried killing herself and sent that to me. I felt like it was my fault and that she was going to lie that I raped her or something like that.

After all that, I met this girl that I knew from high school who is a lot like me, has severe anxiety and depression and just got into reading punpun from me. She tried killing herself in high school. I'm hoping she sees how much it would upset me if she did anything like that no matter how bad it gets. This girl has changed my life knowing that I'm not alone having really bad anxiety. I haven't opened up to her about anything from high school. I just want her to know that I don't think she's a bummer to be around and that I love her very much. I bought her a tablet with it on there hoping she can like it as much as I did.

just got to the letter from punpuns dead mom saying she wrote all his dad's letters and she said her heart broke

And please excuse the errors I ask very tired.

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