Staring at the noose I just tied. Is it really the only way out?

I think I'm in the same general boat as you.

I tied a noose not an hour ago and cut it off after less than a minute, only because I couldn't let my mom find me like that. I want to rent a room and do it there, but why should I ruin yet another person's life finding me at their job because I hate my life?

Wanted to drink myself to sleep but I live in Texas and it was past midnight at that point. So here I am trying to find someone I relate to? Not feel alone?

Why do you think these feelings came about?

I think for me, I feel I'm such a bag human being on the inside, on the outside I fool most people and they don't see me, but I know who I am. I know what I am capable of, good and bad, and the bad seems to be stronger inside me, building up. I don't want to find myself 10 years from now as someone I hate more than I already have myself now, as I feel about my current self compared to 10 years ago.

Your cat caught my eye, and reminded me of mine. I don't know what you're going through, but all I can say is hold onto your cat until morning.

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