In terms of the recent news we saw from Elon, about Starship's Raptor engines recently...

Let me first begin by saying how after a glorious decade of amazing, incredible, jaw-dropping achievements by SpaceX--that was literally the stuff of SciFi dreams, including self-landing rockets!--my hopes, optimism and excitement about humanity having a real chance of FINALLY becoming a true interplanetary-interworld space faring species, has risen to its highest threshold in my entire lifetime!

Well, actually that's not fully true: there was one other point in my life when it was just as high (if not even higher), when I was a kid, and my Dad took my brother and I to see the very 1st launch ever of a Space Shuttle in 1981. Feeling the ground vibrate like that upon engine ignition, and seeing that puppy soaring into the sky--an actual friggin space-plane--trailing a tower of white cloud all the way to space...

All that from the perspective of a kid, certainly got my imagination and optimism fired up for quite a while that's for sure!

That one event alone had me constantly dreaming for years about becoming an astronaut and studying sciences, and lead my brother to a career in the aerospace sector, where he continues to work today.

But then... the shuttle era party atmosphere began to fade quite a bit, as we all know.

And my more brave, daring-to-dream childhood spirit was eventually replaced by my more cynical, disappointed, jaded, adult-space-fan spirit, due primarily I would say, to NASA and the US Congress' failure to really expand the human space flight program in a meaningful way, and executives/managers at companies like Boeing failing to innovate anymore, and even thwarting their engineers.

But then came SpaceX to the RESCUE! Like somekind of superhero!

Also helped along very nicely by other players as well, including NASA/JPL with their Curiosity and Perseverance landers and exploration of Mars, and new visionary players like Rocketlab, and a couple of weekends ago: Astra joined this new age of space exploration club.

So much ever rising optimism for the last decade now... Mostly thanks to SpaceX... And then BAM...

Came that email from Elon Musk... :(

Really hit my visionary world and excitement like a ton of bricks, I have to say.

And for some reason, I now can't seem to quite snap out of this funk, these last few days... even my GF has noticed the profound gloominess and forlorn, and she's been trying to cheer me up.

I mean how many pieces of silver did that VP and add to what was probably already his well padded bank account, by allegedly selling out our space-future and visions by providing false information about engine performance?

Anyways, am I overworrying about the Starship program?

Am I overshifting my pendulum, swinging it back from hyper-optimism, too far towards the doom and gloom side again?

Maybe I am? Afterall, no new rising technological trend ever goes straight up without some downward corrections along the way. We all knew there was always eventually going to be some major discouraging hurdle corrections along the way, in the overall journey of Starship's development.

Just like in the Apollo program of the 1960's.

But still this hits us Starship fans and visionaries pretty hard...