Still recovering, need help

I work in a tech field. Its very demanding, and under normal circumstances i can do the work, but my new job is using an older software im unfamiliar with, and i find the workflow very unintuitive. They hired new people because the production is behind schedule, so they dont really have the resources to train their new employees. Tasks that would normally be divided into 2 or 3 departments are being combined into one, catch-all position, a lot of the stuff i have zero experience in, and wasnt anticipating doing when i was interviewed. I have strict deadlines to adhere to, yet im still fumbling my way through this archaic program, learning all the new techniques required, and theres really not a lot of support.

Some of the new hires have experience with the program and are succeeding, yet getting compared to them is a trigger. getting told "X new guy can do the work, why cant you?" isnt really a question, but a statement of disappointment and an accusation of incompetence. A lot of the new guys who arent "getting it" pull extra long hours and come in on the weekends, all unpaid, but i feel like this shouldnt be an expectation, and i don't feel my mental health is at a point where i can take on all that extra work without having a melt down. I already skip all my breaks during the day to try and catch up, but its just causing me to burn out.

Optimally there'd be a "grace period" for someone who is starting out, and a library of tools and tutorials in order to get myself up to speed. I might have to stand up to my boss and tell him that i cannot meet the deadline next week because i need to take the time to learn the system, which ultimately will pay off when i can start contributing in a meaningful way, but might get me in hot water.

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