Lengthening your anology to showcase that you're not mentally stable doesn't fix your problem. Putting a couple hours a day towards learning and perfecting your job so that you can do it better than the person who taught you, will not only solve your problem, it will open up a lot of opportunities to further your career life and your social life and your mental life, fuck it your entire life for the MUCH better.

Complaining gets you nowhere. Losing to minor obstacles because you're too prideful, or too naive to even know that you need help, to go to a therapist, gets you nowhere. Society sucks, capitalism sucks, mental illness sucks, that doesn't mean you have to let that define you. That doesn't mean you GET to let that define you. There are ways to make those things not suck as much. YOLO bro.