This is the story of one of the most incredible people I have ever met.
I meet this girl on tinder, let's call her ES.
She's a beautiful Mexican girl that has the most incredible physical features, every time you would look at her you would wonder how can someone be so beautiful.
We talk on tinder and we hit it off and don't meet until a couple months later.
Our first date was incredible, I had never been on a date that was this good. We had the intention of only going for coffee, I pick her up outside of her dorm and she gets into my car, my heart dropped from how beautiful she had looked in person and the sound of her voice simply calmed me of any previous anxieties that I had.
Coffee turned into walking to 16th street mall in Denver, it was a couple weeks ago but the day was as warm as summer, and we ended up going to the art museum. Then I show her around the performing arts center, and a restaurant on Lamar st under the overhanging lights. It was something out of a movie. We then rush back to my car because the parking was invalid for about 40 minutes but we made it.
Fast forward to the next time we hang out, I go over to her dorm for a little bit and we start off with a game of chess. I was embarrassed because I hadn't played in a long time so I knew she was going to kick my ass, but she coached me along the way. We then sat on her bed for hours talking about her each other's lives and with every answer she gave me the more the fell for her. Tension arose with each minute, I wanted to kiss her so bad, then came the point when I could not control it much longer. I gently grabbed her face and looked into her eyes and at that moment we both knew we had feelings for each other. The kiss was explosive, both of our past relationships had disappeared into the abyss as if they had never occurred and the stresses of college seemed conquerable and almost non existent. I didn't want to leave... But I had to since it was 3am and I had a class at 9. I drove home that night knowing that this girl, was the one.
The next time we hang out we go to south Denver where there is a place called Daniels Park, it's where you can see the entire city and the southern side of the metro area which is beautiful around sunset hours. We then go back to her dorm before we go watch a movie, and this is the first time we hold hands, never had I ever been so assured that someone cared for me by taking such passion in such a simple thing that we as humans take for granted. Fast forward, she invites me to a party and everyone of her friends fall in love with me and just won't shut up about how I'm such a great guy. I spend the night at her place and she laid in my arms the whole night which felt like I had the world in my hands..
After that night.. Things changed. ES started to talk to me less over the phone, and made excuses as to why we couldn't hang out. I presumed that she was busy but it made no sense since I had more to do than her and I still made time for her. I let it slide and we hang out the next week, she expresses how badly she had wanted to hang out with me and how special I make her feel, and we kiss and the feelings become even more apparent. After this night I knew that this is the girl my parents would be proud of.
But it never became a reality..
ES had continued ignoring me and made excuses to hang out.. I grew saddened because all I thought about was her. I knew deep down she was the one but couldn't understand why this was happening. I then text her and ask if she is leading me on because things aren't adding up...
She tells me.. "I really enjoy spending time with you as well and I know I've come off as super busy but that's actually what I've wanted to talk to you about and I was really scared to tell you in person because people tend to judge but I've also been dating one of my friends that's a girl and we aren't in a relationship or anything. But yeah that's why I haven't had much time and that's why I take so long to reply sometimes"...
What a fucking shock this was. As funny as some people might find it was destroyed in that moment. Everything that could have been, never was and never will be. Though I might find this funny one day, now I just ponder to myself..