Story Time Sunday - May 21, 2017

Dating when you're in a city surrounded by people who generally have incompatible beliefs, values, and lifestyles makes it hard, but I finally allowed myself to find and get excited about someone since my breakup. Tuesday night, I went to bed with a big smile on my face because we really seemed to be on the same page. Then I woke up on Wednesday to an email he sent me in the middle of the night, stating that he really needed to focus on med school and couldn't devote the time to cultivating a serious relationship.

My mind immediately jumped to it's because you're not pretty/smart/funny enough. I tend to internalize rejection, so I interpreted it as me not being good enough to warrant him investing time, even though he never put it in those terms. Hell, he said I was beautiful and charming, which means he at least cared enough about me to soften the blow.

But still. Idk how to fix my self-esteem. I walk around with a stupid chip on my shoulder and act like such an insufferable, needy twat. I'm overly sensitive and take things personally. My relationship with myself is too toxic and maybe I should focus on that more than I should on finding someone to help me stave off the loneliness.

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