Yeah, the most I ever did was 50 mg. I really don’t like it and I don’t want to go through the trouble of signing up for a clinical and all that crap just to get stuck on that crap. That’s why I want to go. I finally realize that I had a huge problem. I was using with my kids there. In the morning before they woke up and at night after they were in bed. My husband did pay for it. I started asking him months ago to go to the clinic. He kept saying he didn’t trust me to go there. Man I have three spots where I have missed. I am in pain and I literally cry when I am trying to hit. I have started to realize how we have both been completely miserable for 4 years. He says he wants me to quit, I offer to go on methadone, he says he doesn’t trust me. Rinse and repeat. I love my kids with everything I am. I am not nodded out all day. I cut a half into dimes and give them to him. He hides two for the day and puts it up. I take my kids places and we are an active family. They don’t know I was using. They did see that me and their dad were fighting and they didn’t know why. He would say he wants me to quit yet not let me get methadone. I just finally moved to my sisters. I am not in love with him, but he has full custody of the kids. I know he will not let me see them when he realizes I am not going home. I have a 12 year old daughter that lives with my brother and the day I left he blocked my kids from calling and messaging her. My kids need me clean, and I don’t love him, plus he is miserable too, he just can’t really forgive me for the past.