I’ve been in your shoes in so many ways. First I want you to realize the depression and other mental health issues are making you look at yourself in a negative light, it’s a vicious compounding cycle. It took me years to stop it and at first it seems like why even bother but you need to make a commitment to yourself that even when it seems pointless in the moment you will stop talking negatively to yourself. Over time I started to see the difference and I eventually started saying what I was good at instead of criticizing myself if I wasn’t great at something different. All those things you listed that you weren’t good at, who really cares, you are going by some weird standards set by society as things people should want to be good at. Bro you can study well and enjoy learning! I remember when I excelled at that to but I felt the need to be good at those other things listed and so I gave up learning to try and fit in better, it was a real waste of time and potential.

There are lots of reasons sex maybe isn’t good for ya at the moment but it can change. The depression is a real boner killer, literally! I suffered back before when I was untreated and sex became so horrible I just stopped for the most part. Also you’re 18 and not lasting a long time isn’t uncommon, trust me the older you get the longer you can last.

I would really encourage you to see a physician about medications and to find a therapist you are comfortable with, they make a hell of a difference. The physician can also see if there are any underlying conditions that make also cause ED issues, it’s embarrassing at first to talk about but talking is the only way to get some help.