If you haven’t killed yourself yet then it is helpful ;). You are not a judge of what is right or wrong either my friend. And if you want me to sound like a psychologist then why not seek their help. I am assuming that you have and it has not helped so why do you want me to sound like one? Why is the way I am texting bothering you. If you are dead inside then why do you care to fix my ignorance. My thought is that you are not dead inside but I guess this is an over simplification :/ whatever that means. At the end of the day you need real friends that care and that you can talk to. I might not be that person but I always do try to show discretion when offering support/advice. I still don’t get why you are posting if you don’t want anyone’s help or to hear their thoughts! I hope you find people that will show you meaning and something to hold onto.