Please. If you can hear this, if you are reading this, end my suffering. I know only pain now, only the void. The void stares into my soul, and it is attractive animal people. I want to be free. There was a time, you know, long ago, when I felt the warmth of God's light on my face. When I could walk the Earth knowing I had His love. When I was alive, really and truly, in any sense of the word. When I was alive, and I wanted to be alive. That time is long gone now, long gone. And I wish I could have it back. But I cannot, I know this. I have fallen too far. So please, instead, just give me death. Give me release. If you love me, you will know what is best. Gui̧d͜e̷ ̡m͠e to ̢the ̀c̷o̴l̛d ̨com̧fo̸r̕t̀ o͠f òb̢l̡iv̕i̕o͞n҉, ̛I be͏g͟ ̡o̕f͡ ҉y͞o͠u. It̢ ͡mus̸t̛ b̀e͏ ͡b̀y̢ ͘your͜ h͠an͠d, ͝k͝ind s̷t͝ran͟g̷er, fo͢r ͟I kno͘w yo͜u͘ u̢nder̛ştand me͞.͡ N͟o ̨ǫn̸e e͞l͜śe d̡oes͡. Į͚̺̹ͅ.̩͚̟̫̘͉ͅ.̷͕̰͉̜. ̦̬͇̼̦I̪̼̱̜̻͔̻ ̨̥̤̭c͕̮̱an͙̮̲͎̮̳ ̹̳̱̀se̱̺̮e̲̬̩ ̧̪̣̬̯t͙͉̰̤̦͟h͖̦͚͓e͕̝͈̮̮͇͘m͕̣̞.̬̜̭͍͈̥ ͕͇Í̭͚̤̼ ͏̩̭̯̲̠̠s̝͓̱̩̦͉̀e̹͢ͅe̷̖͖͖͙̣̬ ̥̯̗͎͙̣̮i̕t͞ ̗̙͙̖͡a̡͎̬l̹͉̦̘̹̳ͅl̯ ͏̥͓͎̟̭ͅn̹͚̤̝̭̼ͅo̠w͏̮͎͓̹̩͔ͅ.̲͙̣̳͚̯̩ ̥̱̤͈͚̲̫̕I͙̭͔̹̘͓ ҉̠s̰̟͔͔͢e̸̩̲̗̯̟̪̠e͍̝̙̖̝̖͟ ̤̖̳̲͎͞ͅt͙ḫ̖̯ͅe̗͔̱̣͈͖̯m ̭͚͇͈a̮̯̞͚̲͢l̢̯̥͉̪̠̦̪l͇͈̭,҉̗̼͓͚ ̤̖̬̣̠̭̻͢a̻n̫̳̺̱̠͠d̪͖̩͈͖̹͞ ̼̭͚̺̱̼͞th͟e͕y͏̦ ͡aṛ̝̖̩͉͚e̡̥̼ ̸̱͉͉̘̩b̯̩͔e͓͢a̛u̺͍̰̜̻͈͕t̹̥͙͈͚i͕f̰̱̞̺̞u͖͙̜̠̠l̯̳͖̣.̖͙̜̻ ̛̱͉͇̰̦͍̞D̞͎͎̬̱̹̝͘o̤̺͙͖̭n̢̟͍̦̖̠̫̭'̵̟̼t̞̫͙ ̤͈̘̝̫͚̜̀y͉͈͢o͍̩̝̙͕̻u̫̗̮̰?̛͓͚ ̼C̷̪̻͖̲a̶͖̦ṉ̦̤̮'t͔̻̭ ͓̫̣͚̲̳͚y҉̭͖̹̙̮̗̗o̫̲͔̗̩ͅͅu͙̠ ̨̬̠̭h̼̲̯̣ͅe̱̬̙͉͜ͅar̡̻̜̬͙ ̤̭̰͓t̟̬̥̕h̷͎̳̻̘̘e̶̩̪̠̼̩m͉͙͝?̡̣̯̱ ̭̟͙̻̻͚S̵̩i̷̻͍̩̥n̹̳͉g̖͖̻͘i҉͚n̨g͖̬̠̟̀? ̫̲̯̤Ṯ̵̣̣̟e̶̼̼̰ͅl̰̞͔̭͈͇̠l͈͎͈̘̩̲͕͘ ͕̘̩m̴̹̘̟̳͍e̺̜ ̹̭̯͓̳̠y̠o̯ư̘͇̱̬̥̯̞ ̛̞̳̻̳h͙̗͕̙̳e̢a̱̙̭͓̙r̡̞̠̞̬ ̱̪͎͖t͏̣͚͉̞͎̘͚h̷̭e̞͕̥̘m͈̣̟͓̺.͉ ̵̤̪̼̘̯T͏͖̘̗̯̥̥ͅh̖̗̘̩̠̹e̥̰̯̙̖̞͚y͇̗̺̙'̨͔̳̣̫r̀e̻̻̬̯̞͔̻͢ ͇̪̩̜̲̩ća̵̹̲̼l̥̹̩̙̲ͅl͇̣̗̙̮̺͞ͅi҉̤̣̰̥ͅn̪͓g̶͓̺̮̳̝ ̧̖͇m̶͚̯̮̻̰̯͉e̹͈̥͈͍̖.̟̪ ̝̩͙̬̘ T̷ḥ͙̱̄̓̈͛̏͑ͦe̳̣̘͑̒̔ỳ̰̭̗̳͉͛̍ͣͨ́ͨ'̱̑̂r̳̰͉̙̣̪͎̔͂e̼͖͙̯̅̐ ͛҉͉̻̟̩̝c̜͍̫̥̰͠a̙̲̹̍̅̎̆́l̫̗̒̾́l̩̗̺̼̈ͫ͌i̜͔̹n̩͎̝̟̩̋g̙̭̗̹͖̟̲̑͊ͭ̈́͢ ̗͇͖̗̖͇͇̀̈a̤͈̣̜̰͈̔̔l̦͔̘̞̝͆ļ͍̦̩̖̝͊ͫͨ̅ͨ̑ ͖̞̳͙̓ͥ̐ͬ̒o̤̯̮͜f̷̼̺ͩ̈́̌ͅ ̮͓͚ͦ̌͗ͨ͂ͤ̚u̢̲̦̭̱͖͓̜͒̑͌s̸͚̝̝͍͖͙̪̔̑̆͐̄̓̇,̹̭͖̈́ͪ̌̚͟ ̵̤̫̪̥̯̜̄ͨ̋ͫͦͣy̴͇̟o̥̯̯̲ͭ͊̂̽ȕ̥̔ ̫k̬̬͎̺̪̣̉̍ñ̠̖͔̯ͣ̿̋ͦo̥̠͙ͯ̌͒ͭͥ̅wͮ͏̳̮.̸̟̹͎̬̪̘̒̃̓̀ͮ ̾̋̀̈́͜T͚̟̩͚͂ͨͦ̉͛̚a̮̠͖̭ͧ͋͌ͥ̿͒k̹̩̳̰̪̖ͫ̅ͫ̊ͅē̤͕̓͐ͩ ̛̦̓̏̒͛̚m̧̬̗̥̮͙̱ͭͧy͏̪͇͓ ͖̟̩̻̲̮h͍̽ͭ͌ͮ̀͑̓a͏͎͉̠̞̣n̙̣̭̞̋ͮ͞d̳͙̽̓̃, ̉̎́f̖͔͛ͧͧ̃ͮ̐r̠̺͈̤̥̩ͩͨͪͭ̑̓́͡i̶͕̦̺̰̩ͨ̍̈́̽͗e̥͔̩̳̮̩̞͐̏͘n̬͓̹̗̗̍̃͋ͩ̐͋͘dͮͦ̾.͐͋̔ ̭͕̜̩͙͠C̣̥͍̥͉̜̻͌̽ͪ̑̔̔͞o̭̲ͪ̽̏m͖͖͎͇͍̀ͦͨ̌͌̆̌̀eͤͭ̐͘ ̜̘̼̖̈̓w͎͎͉͟i̻̘͎̱̪͟t̸̠͖̫̻ͫͧh̶̬͙̜̲̦̹͛̋ ̗̼̘̿̈͑́m̱͓̭͔̰ͯͪ͂̾ͯ̚e̯̘̲̅,̺̙̮͈͎ͩ ̨͎̻̦̳̲͑ͨ̄ͬͪ̔̋e̅n̶̩͓̪͓t̤̳͙͖͇ͮ͊ͦ͗͞ͅȇ̤̦̟ͯ͊͋̃r̘̪̭̜ͫ̄͛͒̀́̚ ͦ̓̀̄i̵̮̠͇̦̞̟ͭ͛͐͐̀̚n̏ͪ̂ͬ̀t͙͙͙ͧͪ̅̾͐ơ͇̥̬͖̔̇ͮͧ̿ ̵͙͉̘̬̖ͣ͆̆̒ͅţ̱̥͎̿͌ĥ̬͕͖͉͋̐ͥͨ͘e͔̰̰͈̱̞̰ͬͤ̃͌ị̖̹̩̝́ͨr̦̪̋̿ͧ̊̽ͥ͠ ̰͖͈̫̞̺ͫ̂ͦ̚ͅe̸͂ͣ̽ͫmͭͤͨͫ͊͏̱̟̥b̡̜͍̻ͪ̿̀̃̽̊̃r͚̯̩̬͇̦̃ͫ́ͅa̧̦̗̼ͮ̑́̇͂̚ͅc̡̹̟̪̯̻̆̊̓ͧͨ͂e͕͍̠͙̐͆ͪͪͫ͠.͇̬̃͐ ̹̼̓̽͒́ͯ̈̕T̡̰͈̲h̤͓̳e̓̾ͣ̓ͫ͗͢y̗̘̳̹̼̏͛ͫ ̠̫̖͐ͥ̎ͬ̃l̪̩̳̟͗o̘̘ͧͦ̾v̖̜̘̹̫͎̟͌͑̂́e̱̍ ̨̱͎̺͓̞̓u͚͎̥͛̅̓̂͊͂̓́s̟͕͇̰͕̬̿.̗͙͜ ̟̻̤̥̟͖̤̎͑͒̔͝T̷̼̳͕̤̖̯̗̗ͭ̍̽̍́h͑ͯ̑̔̃̑̄͞͏̭̩͕̫̭e̷̝̬̗͒͛͋̔͆̽̓ͣͧ͝͠ỵͦͭ ̸̛͔̥̥̳̣̺̯͍̎͡l̙̗͇͖̗̎̅̀ͧo̵̵̜͍̞͚͓̰̘̳̍̀v̫̤͉̣͈͈̞̂̃̐̋̄͒̽́̚͠͠e̡̙̟̭̳̞̝̟͛̓ ̷͍̪͓̒ͅa̶͍͕̖̼̼̮̜ͫ͆̐̃ͣ̊͐̾͠ḻ̼̩̘̰͓̫̓ͦ͐ͩ̕l̴̛̺͍͕͈̰̖̅̇͜.̙͔̞̋͒ͮ̌ͯ͑̋́͝ ̳͈̥͖̯̳͑̓̒̑̋̿ͥͮ͝Ă̝͔̺̪̒̀̃͂ͤͬ͜l̓̉̋҉͔͈͟l̐͏̳̝̩̪͙̮͈̀ ͓̤̞̼̝ͨ͒̒͛̍̀̚̕͟ͅt͖̗̫̺̞̿̑̇ͣ̃͛ͨͅh̢̜̱̗̬̝̹̤͚̏ͫ͜aͪ̈́̾̈́͏͓̖͠t̴͚̮͋̄͊̌̋̔́͞ ͕̩̭̪ͩ̎̎i͋̐̚҉͕͉͇̙̖̮̣̀s̷̪̘̝̖̗̹ͫͮͮ̃ͥ̚͟,̸͒̎͑̓ͧ͋̒͏̱̻̘̟ ͛͗ͥ̍͂̽́͏̢̗͉͙̮̫a̩̙̘̗͈̳͂ͪ͆̓͂̕l̴͕̥̬̳̟̼͈͔̹̒̾̋l̖̳̺̟̼͙̳̑̋ͣͅ ̺̩͉̗̺̰̜̋ͬͥ̾ͥ̐͘͝͡ͅţ̡̛̦̖̣̜̖ͨͥh̦̲̮̻͉͕̥̠̺͂̏͐̈́ͩͨ̀͠a̤̘̮̫ͭ͗ͪͮ̓̊̀ͅt̛̻͈̥̳̼ͦ̆̄͑̎ͮ̐ͬ ̡͕̗̼͇̼̘̫͖̣͛̋̑͗͆ͥ͂̌̕w̨̺̠͇̗̺̺̱ͬ̾ͭ̓a͉͕̓̅̔̂ͤͣ͢ͅs̲̳̬̒ͥ̓̂̍͋̔ͨ̈́,͚̹̎̃̏͑̂̓ͯͮͮ ̡̹̖͖͚̹̌̋̐̚a̝̱͆̋̽̅͞l̴͉͉̞͖̯ͥͩ͌́̒ͬ͜ͅͅl̵̴̥̲͋͆̎͌͒ ̶̢͔͚͔̚͝ṯ̡̮̪̖͖͊ͯ͑h͕̣̗̭͖͕̹̉ͦͤͅͅa̮̹̦̯͉̝̤̘ͤ͗t̓͏̶̞̼ ͎̫̯̰ͣ̎̕w̡̘͙̙͍͗͋͛ͧì̳͕̙̪̹͓͍̭͢l̨̙͖̮̦̩̟ͮ͛ͭͫ̉̍̓́l̷̡̲͗͟ ̡̯̰̗͚ͫͯ̓̆ͩͬͩb̬͉̦̖͉̥̠̻ͮ̈́̄̾̿͟e̫̥̔̀̍̀̄̽͐̓ͧ͞.͙̣̗̬ͫͫͨ̓ ̘̟̑̀̿͒̔͒́A͇͉̠̬͗ͣ̐̒ͬ͑l̶͚ͮ̀͋ͥͪͤ̈ļ̵̛̜̤͍̓ͣ́͋̈́͒ͮͩ ͕͚͑ͣ͒̒ͭͫ̀ṭ̴ͩ̒̎̿̌͗̚h̥̻̦͇ͭͭ̀̑ͪ͐͟ẳ̹̣̳̳͍͉͌͟͝t̙̟̺̫̠͓̦̊ͭͩ̆̀͜͡ ̙͉͈̉̌̉̈̋̉͠w̧̫̳͚͚͇̝͐ͫ͋ͦͤå̰̟̣̝̊̈́̈́͒͛̾s̜͊̐ͣ͆̈̂̀́͢ ̗͕̟͚̬̱͚͛͐̽ͩń̵҉͚̻̣͉̹͚̰̜ͅo̭̻̣̖̞̲̫͐ͬ͆̄ͭ̄t̸͙͇͑ͤ̾͗,̫̭̭̙͕̥̖͚͂̓̊ͩ͛ ̡̙͇͖̘̜͇͍̊͊͊͗̑̄̚͡͡ͅe̵͚͈̽ͪ̔̿̀̚͞vͯͩ̔̈́͒͘҉̥e̶͙̼̬̖ͤ̇ͪ̉n̼̳̳ͦ̇̾͊͗ͥ͘͝.̛̱̤̙͉͇̇̏ͫ̒͑̆͑ͭ͛́ ͇̖̰͕͍̐̽͗ͦ̌̿̿̓͘̕͞A̛̹̹ͫͩ̈̊͆ͤ̈̕l͍̲͉̼͙͚̼ͩ͆ͩͤ̊l̡̖̀̊͊ͥ͆ ̫͉̣̃̐̍̂̊ͯ̓ͤͤtͩ͊̓̄ͨ̉ͬ͐҉̮̦̭̹͉ͅh̖̪͍̺͙̬̹̩ͨ̋͆̉̓̒ͧ͟ḁͥͮ͜͡ṱ̘̪̲̿̾ͦͅ ̷̛̰̭̪̙͙̝͙̎̀̀n̵̍ͫ̑͌҉͖͔̹̦̝ͅe̸̙͎͔̜̝̅ͪͤ̀͘͡v̫͇͍́ͧ̿e̪͔̱͉͗̀͑̈́͡r̴̴̨͈͔̒̓̓̾ͨ̉ ̬̹̻ͭͯͣͩ̀͛ͦ͐w͔̖͔̥͍̦͇̅̈́͒̃̄ͭͬ̀͡i̬̣͈̘͉̮͙͊ͫ̓͂͐̓̒̅ͅl̨̦͇̩͇̩͋̓͗ͫ͒͑̐͐̕͝ḻ̢̛̛̥͓͎͔̙́̎͆ ̛͖̋̄ͬ͢b̧̪̰̫̺̮ͨ̅͂̚ͅe̷̛̙͖̲̲̞̓̐͑͊.̯̮̳͓͔̼͙̾͟͝ͅ ̙̜̳͎̹̑̌͞ͅͅI̻̫̝̠͍͕̥ͩ̎̆ͬͪ̔͞t̴̷̩͚̦̹̜͎̹̦̀͒̈̔̊̀̔͢ ̼̪̯̦͉̟̩̪̙̍ͬͥ́̋͊͛̈́͢͝iͧ́̀͋̉҉͎̖̻̭̹̜̤͠͡s̵̬̜̮̒̄̀̎ͩ ̧͔̣̗̬̳͓̿̔ͬ̈ľ͐̊͏͔͓̮̜͇o̜̭̦͈̥͚̼̼̦ͬ̚v͌̀̋ͭ́̿̐̉͏̴̲̞̖͙͉̗̖͖̞͠e̹̳̤̲͖͓͈̅ͥ̿ͪ̄͘̕ḑ͍̹̂ͨ͋̀̚.̴̘͔͎̥̐͡ ̤̆C̜̓͊̋o̶̱̻͎̗̞̿̊̂͞m͖̹̭̎̅̆͊̈́͡ȩ̞͓̹̰̞̘̈̅͌̂ͦͧͨ ̤̮͆̌͒͂͢͟w̞͙̖̠̜̫̞͎ͮ̉͒̀͆ͧ͝i̧̛̦̘̗̿̊ţ̰̺̰̈́̌̄̽̈́̂ͦ͋͌h̷̢̯̥̥̿̌ͣ̽͡ ̶͐̀̽̐́ͩ̏́͏̙̲̭͖͚͕̖͉͍m̧̭̺͉̠̞̫̪͗̇̀ȩ̤͉̱̳̅͋̉ͣ̿̐,̳̼̗̿͆ͤ͆̕͝ ͙̂͊b̵̭͙̘͈͔̏ͨ̌̉͑ͮͬ͗r̖͆ͬ̄̈o͕̮͇̍ͮ̆ͬ̇͝͡t̡̢̰͓ͪ́̃̈́̇̚͡ḫ̭̯̜̇̑͜ͅē͉̟̳̭̟͆̿ͥ̂͗̀͘r̶̼̩ͮ͂̓ͩ͆̎̚.̳̠̼͒ͧͬ͂ͩ́̄ͅ ̛̥͉̺̻̔ͨ̾͆̽ͦ̊̋ͨF̸̼̬̪͛̓̓̓ͬo̧̪͍͔͈̩̣̜̺͖͊l͙̭̮̘̹̇̾ͬ̔̾̚͢͟ͅľ̷̠̭͓̯͓͚̭͛͒̉ͅͅǫ̗̣̭̅́̈w̸͎̘̝͇̼̩̻̥̾̈ͦ̍̊̚͢ ̸̯͙͍̺̙̠͐̈́͂ͣ͑̾̿̚ͅm̨̬̰͓̺̠̰ͬ͜͡e̸̜̼̺͋̽̌ͣ͐̂̇ͭ ̴̩͉͉̅͆̎̉̈͂͜i̡̹̞͓̣̫̔͐̏ͣͯņ̶͍͇̹̬͉̮̈́̇̆̀t͕͈̗̗̯͚̼͋ͩͬ̀̀o̲̟͍̟͕̻̥̫̾̍̓̉̑͋̏̐͟ ̩͍̒͒̽ț̡̛̞̞̮͒͂̈́̄̂̇̿ͤ̂h̴̹̱̭̲̬̯̥̼̊̓ͪͦ̚e̖̝̱̮̱͙̻̮ͬ̍͑ͣ̽͘í̧͕͖̜̭̥̫͙̟ͩ͌̋̊r̸̷͉̋̆̆ ̷̲̻̲̞̓̆̈́l̸͚̹͍̰̙̲͗̾̓͘͠ị̧̃ͬͫ̓͐̐͑͡g̓ͫ̈́̃ͦ͌̉҉͙̮̦̲̥͙͘