Why is suicide considered selfish, but wanting someone to live on in misery so you don't have to experience sadness is not?

When you call the suicide hotline, they keep you on the phone long enough to call the police. The cops show up at your door, treat you like garbage and help dump you at the hospital. Then, they hold you there for hours, load you into an ambulance and they dump you at a mental hospital. Then the hospital forces you to sign a paper saying that you're voluntarily signing yourself in because if you don't sign it, they schedule a court date that could take up to 3 months to go to. I was suicidal. I lost my sister to cancer, my mother to cancer, my best friend to Parkinson's complications and my neighbor who helped raise me, all in less than 2 years. I had a full blown meltdown. I lost my entire family. Our mental health system is disgusting and broken. I was shoved in a hospital for 5 days, I was grieving, beyond grief. They put me on anti-depressants and I had to pretend to be "better" to get out. (5 days of drugs doesn't help anyone) I regret every single day calling those people. It's my choice if I want to die and not anyone else's. Ive held on for my own reasons but if I ever decide again, I'm never telling anyone. I should be able to die when and how I want. All I wanted was someone to talk to then, anyone! I'm so sorry im ranting guys. It just feels good to actually say all of this for once. Thanks everyone.

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