Oh no worries, I was joking cause "finish the job" sounds so super-villainy haha

Any psychiatrist who's gonna give up on you that easy should insult you. Why are you paying someone to sit there and agree with you? Seems like you could just save your money and buy a parrot. Plus then you couldn't off yourself because who would take care of the parrot?

Definitely see another one, because this guy is phoning it in and not challenging you enough. And totally go see the therapist, that's awesome. Find someone who fights back against your thoughts. Because while they do make sense in an abstract way, they're pretty removed from all feelings (probably because you're in pain, so in order to not feel pain you don't feel anything... aka depression.)

Nah, they're not hobbies, though. They're adventures and lifestyles and experiences. Collect them like passport stamps. There's no reason for it other than they're fun and exhilarating and you'll fall in love with a million different things.... But until you can feel good things again, none of this matters. Work on getting your hopeful feelings, your lighter personality, your non-maudlin thoughts back. Cause then a lot of shit is going to be way more fun.

Good luck, man. Keep fighting, keep trying.