I think I sent her the message back in December because I wasn’t thinking I’d get a response. I hated how we left things and I think I thought that if she saw I was thinking of her she’d say the same thing and that would be closure enough. It’s like that one friend from highschool that you kinda grew apart from, didn’t necessarily have a falling out, but aren’t friends anymore. You see each other for the first time in years and you make pleasantries just because and then you part ways saying ‘we should get a drink sometime and catch up’ and the old friend agrees. But then no further steps are taken to actually go out... I guess it was like that. Idk I feel like a shitty person right now. I don’t deserve anything right now