SV/NSV Feats of the Day - Wednesday, 23 October 2019: Today, I conquered!

Today, for the first time in years of eating disorders, abusive relationships where my body was incessantly berated and extreme emotional eating as a coping mechanism, I (21F) looked at myself in the mirror and said "DAMN!" I actually saw myself as beautiful in that moment, imperfections and all. I've worked so hard to get here and while I still have a some fluff to go, I am just so happy that I have finally gotten to a place where I am kind to myself.

I used to literally crucify myself for having "bad food", getting so depressed that I would binge and binge and then purge every day. Due to the severity of my bulimia, I ended up hospitalized when I was 17 for severe epiglottitis (infection of the epiglottis) that nearly killed me. I had every inch of my body berated for years by horrific partners and an ex fiance who did the opposite and "fattened me up" so that other guys would not hit on me. My body has been objectified by everyone who was supposed to love me, including myself. But all of that is in the past now and I am healthy and happy. I nourish my body well and can treat it to a goddamn donut without falling into self-sabotage right after. My workouts make me feel like a badass strong woman instead of a helpless girl being pushed around by others. I never thought I would get here.

I don't have anyone to share this with today really and I know it doesn't matter much in the face of all the amazing other successes shared here today, but I had to tell someone! Thanks for listening :)

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