I feel like as trans women there is a taboo about our feelings of shame and envy when it comes to periods. I understand that its a painful thing and that we should "feel lucky" for the fact that our bodies do not give us periods. But I dont. I know it makes cis and some trans feel icky and uncomfortable with our desire for periods and the implied fertility it comes with but its a common part of being trans.

I wish I had periods, if I had periods then it would mean that I have female anatomy and would mean I dont have to be transgender. I would never feel like a man in a dress, a freak and a monster. For all the physical pain I would take it because being transgender has caused me tremendous pain also in so many different ways.