I'm on week 2 of slowly getting to 10g, and tonight I'll take my first full dose. I also felt better right away, even with the 2.5g I started with, but from what I've read online and from what mt doctor tells me, it's likely a mix of placebo and relief that I'm doing something that might make me feel better.
To be honest, I don't care if it's the actual effect of the drug, or just my brain tricking me, I'll take anything I can get. However, I think it's important to not get too excited, because it might lead to disappointment when the placebo wears off and you have to wait 4 to 6 weeks for the medication to actually start working. There is a Psychiatrist on Youtube, Dr Tracey Marks, that has a couple videos on the subject. They helped me not feel so much uncertainty around the whole process.
And yeah, in these past two weeks I've had quite a few bad days. Today in particular has been pretty shitty. It seems like no matter how much progress I might feel like I'm making, at some point reality kicks in and I see that nothing makes me happy, that I want nothing from life and that I'm just going through the motions and waiting to die.
Anyways. I've had good days and bad days but I'm only on week two. I really really hope that there is something wrong with my brain that these pills will fix because I just feel so empty. I wish you the best