Tasteful Tuesday

Suddenly a lot more irritations hit you harder compared to when you numb yourself more.

I do think this part of it, and to be clear, I've been smoking from age 19 to 28 on the daily... So s fair to say I prolly got used to a certain way being "baseline"

Mmm, how do I cope with 'em, good question. Combination of gaming, though not so often as it used to be, and music... I was getting pretty big into producing and mixing, but the last few weeks, maybe even month or so... it's been tough to keep it up though, partially because excuses are made in terms of "ah, I need a better setup, ah, I need a room that's more isolated to have less annoyances/distractions"... But really, I don't think that's the case.

But yeah, last weeks, it's been a lack of having sometihng to cope with those feelings, that's been part of the problem is fair to say I think. I've considered physical exercise again, but I'm a lazy soab soo, I'm not expecting that'll happen :p

Mhmm, we did talk about it, I don't think further discussing it would be needed or helpful per se.. we more or less know where it went wrong. Yeah, I don't think it's because there's something unresolved there. I also know it was very much on me, having reacted the way I did because of the lack of coping mechanism in regards to the stress and stuff. That's the main thing to work on I think, though it's hard.

Don't have any appointments planned at the moment, but I do go to one if I feel like the need arises, and it's been coming up for a while I guess. Should do so, not sure if I immediately will... though I probably shoould, hmmmmm.

Try and focus on calming down prior to coming home, try and do some calming breathing on the train. Besides that, should make an appointment with psych either way, I'm limiting the amount of smoking after 8-9 years of just doing whatever, so it makes sense some extra assistance could be useful.

Thanks man, sorry for the longass, incoherent rants, I'm sure the same coudl've been said in half as many words but all right. And it did make the last... hour and a half pass by a lot faster. Cheers.

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