tbh i just need someone to listen and i am a total fake fk -- FTM

and if you'd read closer and at other posts you'd realise that it's because people literally sit there and invalidate me on a daily fucking basis using whatever they can grab, so the more i hide and/or shed, the better off i am.

and fwiw? i can perpetuate whatever stereotypes i want. if i wanted to perpetuate the stereotype of macho manly man who fights people over dumb shit that'd be my choice. you don't get to sit there and berate someone for being a pussy-ass bitch then turn around and shout about how if they're going to perpetuate a stereotype they can ~gtfo~. that ain't how it works in the real world and i sure as fuck am not going to sit around and take that shit.

because let's be real, me being hangry and pissed off all the time from being misgendered and shit all the time has already ruined my rep and probably the image of trans people for people who come in contact with me anyway, so i'm already fucking shit up for everyone by existing. i'll go right the fuck ahead and perpetuate whatever the fuck i end up perpetuating.

perpetuating some stereotype (or defying them) is not my job and not my duty to you/the world as a human being, no less as a trans guy. sorry not sorry. it's not my fucking duty to take that shit on my shoulders and crumble under it for the sake of AMAB people or AFAB or anyone else, just as much as i don't have to feign some bullshit happiness and smiles and ~hormones totez made my life better~ to make the trans community look great.

so the day where people don't use all that shit against me to invalidate me and deny my fucking request of decency, then maybe i'll stop using them to smack myself around and remind myself why i need to hide my details from everyone and avoid people. and good for you that you're brave enough to not request pronouns, clearly you're not a burden to everyone around you. fucking kudos. but i have a fuckload more problems that people have to deal with than that. there is no score to settle. i take what i get, or i lose my roof, my car insurance and my way of contacting anyone.

so you keep on getting your score settled and i'll keep taking what i get while acknowledging the world don't revolve around me.

got it?

fuck off.

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