I made a throwaway so if he's like others in this thread looking for one about him -- here it is! :')
This is going to be an essay y'all don't have to read this
He's just unlike anyone else I've met. He's also extremely attractive to me, and I hate it. I love his voice, his weird opinions, his tastes (and he knows of so many things, all of his tastes are so unpredictable, and he has a super neat art collection on his computer and I love so much that he curated it. Every piece is so so cool) , he's well read, he's always up to date on current events, I love just being around him and honestly feel that we could do anything and it would be fun with him. We already have neat memories together, I've seen my favorite bands with him (that he also likes!). He has style that is so unique and just good. He said he practiced his smile and it's usually not genuine but SOMETIMES on a rare occasion he laughs abruptly and it's different from his other laughs and honestly just him being happy is the best.
He encourages me, he's reached out during some of the scariest times for me, he challenges me, he's so dang smart. He's kept friends for years and years and that's such a great thing to me. We share lots of cool friends too. we actually had so many mutuals that I had no idea how we Ididn't meet before then. He's great with kids and loves them. He loves telling corny jokes and presents them in a way to make sure he's captivated everyone even if the punchline is dumb. He has a spider as a pet. He has similar goals as me. He's a great friend. He can play lots of instruments and sometimes just sets up a camera and plays for his friends.
I like what he studied in school, I like what he knows. I like what his dreams are. I feel so good sleeping next to him, I love fucking him. Ugh. We can talk for hours about whatever. He loves his dad a lot and it makes me wanna cry.
I like imagining us living in a weird house together where we just do our weird hobbies and have a bunch of animals and big get togethers with our friends. We travel, go on dumb adventures and are just best friends who share a space.
one time when he was drunk he was like "man, no one loves me. Like, REALLY loves me. because of what I believe in and I feel like no one ever will." and guys, I'm sure you know how I felt right then. That was early on, but I thought "well you seem really easy to love in my opinion. There's terrible, terrible people who are loved unconditionally I don't see why you'd be some exception"
He struggles with connecting to people because he had a rough childhood and that happens to some if it was really bad. He deserves love and to feel it and give it and I hope all the time that he can find it in himself to get started on how to figure that out for himself, by therapy or something, but I love him all the same.
he's my pal and I hope I'll always know him even if I can't be with him because he's so much more valuable than just a romantic interest. He's him! The whole complex world that's him. So glad I met him.